LIST OF DREAMS I HAD LAST NIGHT WHICH LEAD ME TO BELIEVE THAT I CURRENTLY HAVE ISSUES WITH CONTROL IN MY LIFE:
- driving with nat and joe in the old bmw / weaving to avoid the crashed and stopped cars / i don't know how we survived
- at some sort of baseball game / fly ball comes to me / i drop it / i go to get my real glove / i can't put it on right / i drop the next ball
- at an orchestra rehearsal / playing drums on the shaft theme / i haven't played in over two years [ longer than that really ] / the drums are sliding away from me / i can't play at all
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there are a lot of sirens this morning.
as an aside, pretty much the only time i write anything by hand (signing things doesn't count and my signature is invariably different every time i sign something - especially if i have to sign 3 or more items in a row) is when i write out my rent check at the end of every month. it has been getting increasingly difficult.